Buffy fanfiction, Willow fanfiction, Buffy slash
fanfiction, Willow Kennedy Fanfiction
Joss owns 'em. I'm just using them for my sick, twisted
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NC-17. Not quite yet but it will get there soon enough.
This is a 'choose your own adventure' story. I had
different endings in mind so whatever path you take will
lead you to a different outcome. Those of you unfamiliar
with 'choose your own adventure' will understand when
you reach the bottom of part one.
Willow quickly looked
back at the book avoiding Kennedy's gaze.
"No," she said softly. "We'll see if we
can find something else."
"Oh come on
Willow. I'm willing to take one for the good of the
team," Kennedy teased.
Willow closed the book
and faced Kennedy. "You don't believe in magic and
that's fine. But I realize what this could mean. Of
course there was a time not long ago when I-I wouldn't
care but…you have to understand Kennedy - not only is
this spell life threatening but…"
"Your first time
should be special, something that happens because it's
you and you alone," Willow grinned warmly before
turning serious again. "A-And I won't use you for
the purposes of magic. I'm sorry but I can't a-and I
"It's not using
if someone's willing. And what could be more special
than getting to spend the evening with you AND help out
the potentials in the process. It's kinda poetic
"I'm not playing
the poet. And the answer's no."
Kennedy was a bit
taken back. Willow hadn't been that unyielding with her
before. It was frustrating but Kennedy had to admit, it
was kind of arousing too.
set against this, aren't you? I have to admit it's a
side I haven't seen before."
"I've got lots of
sides you haven't seen. Some are better left unseen than
"And is this one
of them? I mean I'm not gonna bring out big, scary
Willow, am I?"
replied and slowly a grin worked to her lips. "This
is just what's called 'resolve face'. Xander knows it.
Buffy knows it. Even Giles knows it. And when you see it
you might as well give up because I won't change my
"You have no
idea," Willow sighed before smiling. "Come
on," she added, handing two of the books to Kennedy
before picking up two more and blowing out the candle.
"Let's take these back to the house and look them
over a bit more."
When they walked in
the Summers house they found all the S.I.T.'s talking in
asked. "No way!"
"Yeah shocking I
know," Rona chuckled.
shocking?" Kennedy asked as she walked over to the
group. Willow closed the door and followed behind her.
already," Vi added. "And she's only 16!"
out," Rona shrugged.
kidding?" Willow asked. "I was going to test
out too but Xander begged a-and he did a fair amount of
pleaded for me not to. He told me that if he had to
endure the pain of high school so did I."
"So you stayed in
school for the Xan man?" Rona asked with a grin.
Willow chuckled at her
equation of Xander. "Yeah I did. But I don't regret
it. If I'd left I wouldn't have met Buffy. A-and it's
kinda lame having your mom drive you to college because
you don't, you know, have a license? So I waited."
"So we've got two
big brains in the house," Molly added.
"We should have
them play Jeopardy some night," Amanda added.
"You know put them up in front of a podium and ask
them questions to see who the smartest one is?"
"That would be
cool," Vi replied. The group of young women started
to chatter excitedly about the idea with the exception
"I'm not gonna
enter a big brain competition against Willow," Rona
"What's wrong? No
guts?" Willow prodded.
Rona moved to her
feet. "Are you challengin' me? Because that sounds
like a challenge."
am," Willow grinned.
Rona considered it and
started to nod. "Okay. You name the time and the
"A week from
today. Right here. The girls can put the questions
together but no cheating. They can't give you the
answers and you can't ask. Agreed?"
"That goes for
her too," Rona pointed to Kennedy. "No
midnight confessions during pillow talk."
The group got a kick
out of that and offered a few of their own teasing
the level and up 'n' up," Willow told her.
Rona offered her pinky
in 'swear' and Willow took it in hers.
Rona nodded confidently.
Buffy walked in and
caught the tail end of the conversation. "What's
wipe the floor with Rona in a knowledge test AKA
Jeopardy style," Amanda told her.
"I highly doubt
that," Molly offered. "I'd stake my wager on
"Wanna put your
money where you're mouth is?" Amanda teased.
The group then began
placing bets and Buffy took Willow by the arm. "I
need to speak to you alone," she told her in a
Willow handed her
books over to Kennedy even as Buffy pulled her along,
making the brunette try her best to balance them as she
wrong?" Willow asked once she and Buffy were alone
in the kitchen.
"What the Hell
are you doing?"
"I don't think
now's the time to invite Alex Trebeck over."
"We'll get Xander
to play Alex. You know? Put a fake mustache on him. Have
him try to hide a Canadian accent and act more
intelligent than he really is." Willow grinned,
hoping a bit of levity might improve Buffy's mood.
Buffy was still
failing to see the humor and stood stone-faced, arms
folded across her chest.
"Oh come on
Buffy," Willow sighed. "It's just a way for
them to blow off a little steam and not focus on the
impeding doom every moment of the day. Besides, it's
educational too. They'll learn things the when they look
up questions like the capital of Cuba and
stuff.…Havana by the way. So, see? Double
"We are facing an
apocalypse in case you forgot-."
haven't," Willow said cutting her off, feeling her
own anger rise. "A-and it's not like we haven't
faced apocalypses before. The difference this time
around is you seem to have forgotten about why we fight
Willow countered. "We do it because life is worth
living. We do it because life can be fun. A-and if you
don't stop and take time to enjoy things life has to
offer then you end up…." Willow stopped herself
wanting to find the right words
"You end up
what?" Buffy asked, her frustration evident in her
voice. Willow knew there was no way to sugar coat it.
Buffy's attitude pushed her too far.
the Wiccan spat out.
fell and Willow instantly regretted the way it came out.
"I love you
Buffy. You know that, right? So I gotta say this…You
don't have fun anymore. There was a time when you could
save the world a-and smile but now..." Willow
paused, taking a moment to formulate her thoughts.
"When's the last time you smiled? Really smiled and
meant it? If you have recently, I haven't seen it. To be
honest I haven't seen it since I screwed up and ripped
you out of heaven. I'm sure it was a great place 'n' all
but there's things down here to enjoy too like your
friends and your family. Yeah I melted down and forgot
about that after Tara died but I've been putting things
back together and I know what's important."
Buffy began to reply
but Willow held up a finger as she continued.
"You don't like
the game show idea and that's fine. Point taken. But I'm
gonna talk to these girls, to share a few laughs a-and
yeah I might lose some of them… but you know what? I
still plan to get involved and get to know them."
"Yeah some more
than others," Buffy muttered.
Willow sighed and
began to shake her head. "That was cheap
"I didn't mean
it," Buffy said a bit louder.
did," Willow answered. "I'd just like to know
why. Obviously my relationship with Kennedy is a problem
with you. Is it the age thing? Because she's only two
years younger than us and-."
"Just forget it
Will," Buffy said starting to leave. She didn't get
far. Willow snaked her arm out and turned her back
"No. I'm done
'forgetting' things with you Buffy. I'm done letting
things go or watching you stalk off to be alone. You're
the fearless leader here but you're still a damn shadow
to everyone. Grant it those girls don't see it because
they don't know you but I do…Or at least I did. So no
"What do you want
me to say?"
Willow paused to
regroup her thoughts. "For starters, tell me why a
'game show' is such a big deal?"
"It's not. I just
over reacted," Buffy answered, trying to move away
The answer however
didn't satisfy Willow and once again she stopped her.
"Nah ah. I want to know why."
Buffy's arms refolded
to her chest but Willow reached out and pulled them
away. At first Buffy looked angry.
me," she warned.
Willow refused to look
away at the attempted intimidation. The longer she stood
there just watching her best friend in silence the more
nervous Buffy began to look. It was too much. Willow
could tell Buffy was on the verge of saying something
but unable to make a sound. Not opting to wait any
longer, Willow pulled Buffy into an embrace and much to
both of their surprise Buffy began to sob. It wasn't
loud but Willow could feel the Slayers shoulders rising
and falling and instinctively Willow tightened her hold.
Willow said as she began to rock her. "It's okay.
Take your time."
The Wiccan began to
run her palm over the back of Buffy's head repeatedly,
trying to sooth her. She started to cry even harder and
her arms gripped the Wiccan even more.
"I feel like I'm
running on empty here," Buffy managed to squeak
Willow told her. "Been there myself."
"I need help but
. . ."
"Don't know what
to ask for or even who to ask?"
Buffy pulled back and
started to grin as she wiped the tears from her eyes.
"It's scary how you still do that – know what I'm
trying to say even if I don't."
Oh yeah? Xander says
this is scarier,
Willow answered calling with her mind to Buffy.
Buffy gave a light
chuckle. "That is a bit spookier I'll admit,"
she said out loud.
Willow grinned and ran
her hand down Buffy's arm before stopping and
interlocking her fingers with Buffy. She was a bit
relieved when she felt Buffy tighten her grasp too.
fearless leader Buffy but it's okay to be scared…well
maybe not in front of them," she admitted with a
comforting grin. "But you can let your guard down
with us. You know? Me, Xander, Giles. None of us would
think any less of you. A-and didn't Giles tell you once
that the best way to be strong and be an adult is to ask
for help when you need it?"
"It's just a game
to take their minds off the doom for a little while.
It'll be entertaining, maybe a few laughs. All good I
assure you. A-and much needed…I can still use a few
smiles too ya know? Just because Kennedy is in my life
doesn't mean that things are rosy. Having her here helps
but…I still miss her Buffy. I'll miss her until the
day I die."
Buffy knew who 'her'
was and didn't need an explanation.
"I know you do
Will. I miss her too. Even after you guys broke up I
still talked to her. And it wasn't until you left for
England that it really hit me that she was gone...So I
miss her, if it's worth anything."
"It is. I'm glad
to know she touched your life too," Willow nodded.
"But I think you do have some problem with Kennedy
and I think you should tell me what it is…Maybe you
can't pin point it exactly but-."
"Oh I know."
Buffy grinned, feeling a bit nervous.
"You were mine.
But now you're hers."
Willow could almost
feel her jaw drop and she began to stammer for a
starting place. At first Buffy wasn't sure what brought
on the reaction then she realized the way it must have
"No. I said that
all wrong," Buffy replied quickly, holding her
hands in front of her, trying desperately to correct her
point. "I mean…You're my big gun Will; my witch.
I'm your slayer. And now…if it came down to a
choice…which slayer would you choose? I feel like I'm
not 'your Slayer' anymore. She is and…okay, I know
she's not a Slayer yet and I'm not 'totally yours'
because the only sleeping we've done together has been
in a platonic 'no naughty touching' nature. And damn I
need to take breath in here someplace." Buffy
paused but held her hands up so Willow would let her
continue. "Look…I'm petty, okay? I'm petty and
small and jealous. But not in a sexy jealous way,"
she added quickly. "I'm not talking cuddles…or
more than cuddles…but I mean in a…"
because I have a 'back up' slayer in my life?"
Buffy sighed, relieved that Willow understood what she
struggled to get out.
"I know how you
feel. I felt the same when Faith showed up. You didn't
need me anymore. Well, not until she went all crazy and
homicidal but that's not the point," Willow said
shaking her head. "The point is this: You'll always
be my Slayer Buffy. Just like Tara will always be my
girl…But I think I've got room for Kennedy in my heart
too. The more I see of her, the more I like."
Willow watched the
playful smirk come to Buffy's face.
"Hey! No dirty
thoughts," Willow warned, waving her finger.
"I mean I like HER. And not having to explain the
whole scoobies scene or leading a 'double life' is a big
bonus I might add," she said with a chuckle.
"I love you all but for different reasons. So don't
"Kennedy's lucky to have you Will. And so am
I…Don't forget that okay?"
"I won't as long
as you don't forget that I'm around. You can come to me
and not keep things bottled up like this. Deal?"
she said holding out her hand to shake.
Buffy gently pushed
the hand away and hugged Willow instead.
"Deal," she said softly.
"So ya gonna root
for me?" Willow asked optimistically. "In the
"I'll lead the
Willow section. Kennedy just better not get in my
"What? I admitted
I was petty. I'm possessive too ya know? If anyone gets
to lead the big gun cheering squad it's me. Plus, I have
experience I might add."
Willow chuckled as she
led Buffy back to the dinning room. "I'll warn her
in advance. You called dibs on head cheerleader
first," she whispered.
yet?" Kennedy asked as she thumbed through one of
She was sprawled out
on the bed with a variety of books while Willow sat in
the chair examining hers.
sighed. "Nothing. Well…the virgin spell…but as
we discussed that's not an option."
"So where's that
fast," Willow said closing the book and gently
tossing it on the ground.
She slumped over and
started to rub her forehead to ease the tension.
Kennedy called from the bed.
"Yeah a little. I
think all the reading is getting to me lately. Reading
spells. Reading web sites for the First. Reading
textbooks with the hopes I might actually get a degree
"Hey," she called over, making Willow look up.
"C'mere," she nodded.
Willow gave a light
grin and pulled herself to her feet making her way over
to the bed. Kennedy pushed the books out of the way and
patted the mattress. "Give me those feet."
"That might be
dangerous you know? They say the feet have nerve endings
that run to every part of the body."
"Which is why I
assume you mentioned that you like them."
"You don't have
to do that," Willow assured her even as Kennedy
took her foot.
"You're right. I
don't have to do it. I want to. Lie back."
Willow rested her head
on the pillows by the headboard and Kennedy went to work
massaging. Willow instinctively felt her eyes close and
she let out a soft moan.
"You work so
hard. You really push yourself."
"You should talk
Miss 250 push ups, chin ups, sit ups a day."
"I do that to
burn off fat, build muscle…defuse my sexual
Willow opened her eyes
briefly and grinned down at the brunette whose thumbs
pressed and rubbed against her right sole.
This probably isn't helping the tension any, is
I'll just go run a few laps in the back yard after I'm
done," Kennedy told her with a slight chuckle.
"You'll get all
hot and sticky."
Sugar. Trust me."
Willow laughed out
loud and Kennedy found herself smiling at the redhead.
"I knew it,"
Kennedy said softly.
"That you'd look
beautiful when you laugh. You barely smiled when I first
got here…Are you happier now? Do I make you
"What do you
think?" Willow asked.
"Yeah I think so
but…It's all so different. I mean I told you about my
experience but to have the chance at something
real…with someone like you. It's just…it's amazing.
And I keep thinking at some point I'm gonna wake up back
in boarding school with Suzi Whitter in my arms and be
forced to listen to stories of how Greg Domus is the
cutest guy that ever lived."
"Nah no Suzi's
here," Willow assured her. "Just little ole
Kennedy took in the
sight of willow nestled in the pillows, her red hair
splayed across the white, cotton case. Her hazel eyes
smiling at her. Laps just weren't gonna do it tonight.
Subconsciously her hands began to rub higher until she
was massaging the top of Willow's legs.
"I wanna say it
Willow. I want to tell you I'm falling in love here but
I know you can't say the same. But…" Willow
watched as Kennedy closed her eyes. "I'm falling in
love with you Willow. Maybe it's the situation – you
know? Life and death. World in peril. Finally meeting
someone whose into something more than 'one night
stands'. I don't know. Maybe it's just something simpler
than that – maybe it's just the way your nose crinkles
when you get mad or the way your hair tickles me when we
kiss or maybe it's just the fact you use five sentences
instead of just one when you're describing
something…Doesn't matter in the end I guess…And I'm
not sure why I even said it because I know you can't
possibly feel the same but…I thought you should
know…I think your babble mode is rubbing off,"
Kennedy chuckled nervously, looking at Willow's feet
ignoring her eyes.
Willow sat up and
Kennedy still refused to look toward the head of the
bed, even though her hands were now empty.
"That took a lot
of guts," Willow told her.
crazy huh? Maybe just stupid…Please don't hate me for
saying that. And don't pull away because…I want to
keep making you happy. I really think I could you
Kennedy felt the
mattress shift and she could see Willow next to her out
of the corner of her eye. When Kennedy still didn't look
up, Willow pulled Kennedy up by the chin gently.
"Where's all that
cocky confidence I'm used to seeing, hmm?" Willow
"I'm not always
confident. Some times you scare me. Or I should say…I
scare myself when I'm around you."
Willow just nodded.
"You make me weak
sometimes. You make me feel things I've never felt. And
I get…weak…But at the same time I feel like I could
take on the world. Like I said brave and crazy I
guess," she shrugged.
Willow pursed her lips
for a moment. Wanting to say the right words but not
wanting to mislead Kennedy. "I can't give you my
heart. But there is something I can give you," she
told the potential as she played with the top button of
the brunettes pajamas.
Kennedy took the hand
in hers and closed her eyes. She placed a slow burning
kiss on the knuckles.
"I don't want
your body until I can have your heart too Willow. And I
know you can't give me that yet. But thank you. Thank
you for trusting me enough to be willing to share that
part of yourself...I just need the whole package."
right," Willow said. She used her free hand to
brush a piece of wayward hair behind Kennedy's ear.
"I'm sorry for offering."
Kennedy smiled. "But like you said earlier. It
should be special. It should have a deeper meaning. And
if we ever get to that point…" Kennedy paused as
a sly grin came to her face. "…consider me there
Willow said nodding toward the head of the bed.
"Let's call it a night." She began to put the
remaining books on the floor as Kennedy climbed under
the sheets and slipped inside. Willow soon joined her,
resting her head on Kennedy's shoulder and wrapping her
arm around her waist.
"Just so you
know…this is different for me too," Willow said
don't know…looked before I leaped?"
"I'm not sure I
"Well I've only
had two lovers in my life. I've only been physically
intimate with three people. A-and with all I knew them
first. Xander I knew forever. With Oz at first he was
just a fellow computer geek. And Tara…she was my magic
buddy. With all of them I knew them as something else
than a cuddle buddy. Not that this isn't nice,"
Willow added quickly. "This is more than nice. It's
"You never let
your libido steer the way?"
"I never even
knew I had a libido," Willow giggled. "Well
that's not entirely true," she confessed. "But
yeah, this is different. This is like…intense. A-and
it is a bit scary for me too."
"Well we can be
horny and scared together. How's that sound?"
Kennedy asked with a teasing grin.
Willow smiled and
moved to rest on her elbow before kissing Kennedy
tenderly on the lips. As she pulled back she watched the
grin on Kennedy's face as she slowly opened her eyes.
said softly. "Beautiful. Smart. A great kisser. You
got it goin' on Sugar." Kennedy pulled Willow back
down to her shoulder and they both snuggled in.
"Say goodnight before I use my dormant slayer
strength to ravish you," she teased.
Willow tightened her
hold a bit on Kennedy's waist.
Willow rushed around
the house trying to find her book bag as she called up
the stairs. "Hurry up Dawn. You're gonna be late
"It's not my
fault Vi went over her shower time," Dawn yelled
downstairs. "I've gotta dry my hair."
Willow rolled her
eyes. "Just braid it and come on."
Kennedy leaned on the
wall near the staircase watching her girlfriend riffle
through duffle bags, coats and a host of other items.
"Ah Ha!" she
heard Willow exclaiming pulling her book bag out.
"I think WE need a house with wings."
"Ship all us
potentials out there huh?" Kennedy offered.
"Not all the
potentials," Willow grinned lecherously.
"Actually I was thinking we could live in the wing
and give everyone else the rest of the house."
"Now there's an
idea," Kennedy grinned.
Dawn still hadn't
surfaced yet so Willow yelled up again in a singsong
voice as she went to the front door. "I'm opening
the door now! I'm leaving!" Willow went to step out
but the sight in front of her stopped her cold. "Oh
my God," she muttered.
Kennedy walked around
to see what had turned Willow a ghostly white. As the
redhead started to collapse, Kennedy caught her and
softened her descent. She shouted up the stairs in near
Kennedy looked toward
the porch. She'd seen the pictures. She knew the face.
The blonde nodded and
reached out to touch Willow's limp body but Kennedy
smacked her hand away. In that instant Kennedy realized
something. She'd smacked her hand away. She was solid.
She was real and not
the first. Kennedy wasn't sure if she felt uneasiness or
relief. Either way, she figured it couldn't be good.
you?" they both asked in unison.
"So the last
thing you remember, you were at your dorm,
correct?" Giles asked.
Tara nodded from
across the dining room table where nearly everyone was
gathered with the exception of Willow who was still
passed out on the sofa and Kennedy who tried to rouse
"Yes. I walked
into the hall to go to the soda machine and when I got
back it wasn't my room. I mean none of my things were
there. It was like it was entirely someone else's room
so I went over to Will's dorm and when I got there
another girl answered and said she'd been there for
nearly a year and she didn't have a roommate named
"Well of course I
went to your place Giles. The guy there told me the man
that rented the place before him had moved back to
England according to the landlord…but that was about a
year before. He offered to try to contact his landlord
but I passed…So the next place I hit was the Magic Box
but it's all boarded up and condemned. Finally, I came
here to your place," she told Buffy. "Maybe
you or Dawn or your mom might be here."
At that moment Dawn
walked into the dining room. "Kennedy says the
smelling salts aren't working," she told the group.
"Willow's still out cold."
"What's going on
here?" Tara asked. "Why is Will passed out and
why is an entire year of my life gone from existence? I
mean…have any of you seen me recently?"
The scoobies and Giles
shifted uncomfortable unsure of what to say or even how
to explain it.
sometime since we've seen you but obviously you've seen
us as recent as yesterday," Giles began when no one
else did. "Perhaps you can tell us more about your
experience so far this morning. Is there anything else
you can remember?"
"The Bronze is in
the wrong spot," Tara told him after a brief
"The club? The
Bronze? It's on the other side of the street entirely.
Oh! And Andy's service station doesn't exist. There's a
place called Blackbeard's Fish and Chips there instead.
I mean it looks like Sunnydale. It feels like Sunnydale
"It's not your
Sunnydale," Giles finished.
"But it has to
be," Tara insisted. "I know all of you and you
all know me."
dimension," Anya muttered.
"It sounds like a
linear dimension," Anya told them. "This
'world'," she said motioning around the room,
"it's just one reality."
thousands, maybe even millions of others," Giles
offered as Anya nodded.
Anya told him. "She must be from another dimension.
Not the Tara we know or that knows us but the
resemblance between both lines is well…freaky. So is
Willow your lover?"
Buffy remarked at the tactless question.
"I'm just curious
as to how much is in common between worlds," Anya
"No, that's okay.
She's my lover. Well was my lover I guess. This is all
"Did Xander marry
me?" the ex-demon asked next.
Buffy began. "I swear to God-."
"I'd just like to
know if there's another me out there that isn't
miserable. Is that so wrong?"
"Right now yes
because this isn't about you."
okay," Tara told Buffy. "Maybe the more I
answer the more we can figure out what's happened...And
no you haven't married. You're both engaged
nodded. "Sounds like a linear dimension
Buffy computed the
information. "Well how did she get here?"
Anya examined Tara for
a moment. "Beats me," Anya shrugged.
Giles began. "Does your Sunnydale have a Slayer? Do
you even know what a slayer is?"
Tara grinned. "Of
course I know what a slayer is. You above all people
should know that Giles? But the question is do all of
Slayer," Buffy answered.
Tara started to laugh.
"You've got to be kidding me. This can't be my
Buffy said indignant. "Whose your Slayer?"
Tara grinned. "I
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